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Saturday, June 25, 2011
Mentally Retarded
Ya Allah... Bosannye aku weekend ni.. Baki Akaun tak mencukupi.. Kawan2 semua entah kemana.. Adui.. Anyone.. Please...
Monday, June 20, 2011
Chevvy

Chevrolet like Ford, is looking to downsize on costs by introducing one model globally. First in their global range of cars is the Chevrolet Cruze, which is named so in most of the countries it is sold in. The supposed successor to the Chevrolet Optra or the Lacetti (for you Top Gear fans), bears no resemblance to the Daewoo platform the car replaces. In reality, the Cruze comes to you courtesy of GM’s Delta II platform seen in the 2010 Opel Astra.
Design is courtesy of Daewoo and it looks like they have done a good job, though its not hard to get inspiration from your own model line up when it includes the Camaro SS. Nevertheless, you are treated to a front grill that makes you proud for once to own a non-American Chevrolet. The muscular face extends to the side, which is smoothened out to a more conventional look, finished off with a redesigned Optra-like posterior. Overall, it is a handsome looking thing.
Look for the full report and high-res images after the jump.
GM have livened things up on the inside too by featuring a two-tone fabric on the dashboard and around the interior. This, especially in regards to the dashboard, is very unlike other cars in this price range which choose to stick with the drab design that they are comfortable with. The word ‘unique’ definitely comes to mind when thinking about the Cruze’s interior.
Backlight for the panels, dashboard and meters feature a light blue hue that is tasteful and matches the interior really well. I have seen many other cars featuring blue lighting, often causing an eye sore. Not the case for the Cruze. The instrument panel alone makes your feel good about the car, with it’s well-positioned dials and chrome rings. A trip display is also evident in the instrument panel, nestled between the speedometer and tachometer. Settings of the car, including the radio are all displayed on an LCD screen placed on the centre dash. Apart from looking good the interior is also practical with generous compartments including those must-have cup holders. There is also a compartment that pops out on the dashboard.
In regards to the tactility of the interior, the Cruze offers a good feel, for it’s segment of course. Its no BMW 7-Series but despite featuring lots of plastics, the interior does not feel cheap. Tactility from the buttons and gaps on areas such as the dashboard are acceptable. The steering wheel also feels solid and it’s rim is anything but too thin. There are also enough support from the seats, it would not make you feel too tired after long hours of driving.
Sitting in the Cruze, I find that there is a respectable amount of space available for both the front and rear passengers. A simple space test was also done with yours truly (6ft 1′) and another male passenger (5ft 9’). It passed the space test satisfactorily. In the back you will get a luggage capacity of 450 litres with the rear seats up. Overall the interior hits the spot just like it’s exterior.
Other features of the car include front and rear disc brakes, ABS, EBD (electronic brake force distribution) while our local model comes with just two airbags. The local-spec Cruze also sports a traction control system, something that is rare in other cars from the Cruze’s price range. It has to be said that the Euro-spec Cruze managed a successful five-star Euro NCAP rating, which usually takes into account full safety equipments, including all airbags.
Lets move on to the drivetrain. The local-spec Cruze is only offered in one variant which is the 1.8 LT, fitted with the 1.8 litre Ecotec engine producing 140hp and 176Nm of torque at 3,800 RPM. The engine features a twin-cam 16-valve configuration with DCVCP (Double Continuous Variable Cam Phasing) and VIS (Variable Intake System). I had a taste of this engine in the Vauxhall Astra Sports Coupe 1.8 SRi, which felt underpowered. Unfortunately I have to say that this is the same case with the Cruze.
The car feels rather heavy with this engine, especially during heavy-footed driving. You would have to make the engine work hard during overtaking or if you are on a rush. The engine is mated to a 6-speed automatic transmission with Shiftronic and to be honest, the transmission does not help improve the driving experience. At times it felt like it was taking it’s own sweet time to plug into the next gear, while the engine revved away aimlessly. Basically gear changes, whether up-shifts or down-shifts were anything but snappy.
However the manual shift function is a godsend in this case as it comfortably allowed me to get into the right gear at the right time. Considering everything, the 1.8 liter does offer adequate power for everyday driving and the driving experience got better when I was cruising at higher speeds on the highway. While we are talking about high-speed cruising, I should also note that wind noise at speeds of about 110km/h is acceptable as well. Using the Cruze to commute to work, to the grocers or drive 300 kilometers up north for your occasional “balik kampung” trips isn’t a problem, as long as you don’t bring it to Sepang!
Lets move on to the other mechanical bits. The Cruze uses MacPherson struts for the front and a Torsion beam for the rear. This is more of an expected arrangement for a car from such a segment. I am happy to report that that the Cruze does have good bump-absorbation qualities, hence offering a respectable ride comfort. It soaked up those nasty pot holes evident on most of our local roads. There was nothing hard or stiff about it, even on the highway during high-speed cruising. The Cruze’s noise, vibration and harshness (NVH) levels were within tolerance as well.
However to make way for a supple ride, it looks as though the handling of the Cruze has been slightly compromised. There are hints of understeer and the feeling that you are not fully connected to the road when you push the car harder. At higher speeds on the highway, say at about 160km/h, the car tends to feel a little floaty. Nevertheless, you will only feel the negative aspects in regards to the Cruze’s handling when you drive closer to the car’s limits but the Cruze is not a car that you would take to a time attack event.
The Cruze behaves well in it’s element, meaning during normal day-to-day driving. During the test we took the Cruze on various driving environments which included sedate and throttle-happy affairs. With that in mind we recorded an average fuel economy figure of approximately 9.2 liters per 100 kilometers, which is not great yet not that bad.
Thanks to Naza and their joint venture with Chevrolet, we get the Cruze for RM98,767 OTR without insurance. This as you would probably notice is much cheaper than Japanese cars such as the Toyota Altis, Honda Civic and the Mitsubishi Lancer. It’s most obvious competitor is the Kia Forte 2.0 which comes in at a slightly cheaper price of RM93,800 OTR plus insurance. Apart from the cheaper price tag, the Forte 2.0 offers more power with it’s 154hp/194Nm of torque 2.0 liter engine. In my honest opinion the more potent Forte looks as good and drives slightly better, if not similar.
I must admit that the Cruze has an upper hand in the interior design department. Talking about the interior, the Cruze has 16mm less headroom at the front but 8mm more at the back as well as 26mm less leg room up front having 27mm more at the rear compared to the Forte. However the Cruze loses out in overall headroom by 24mm in front and 20mm at the back. At the end of day the Cruze may be slightly expensive and offer less power compared to it’s Korean competitor but overall it still performs well as a package.
Credit to : Paultan.org

I just wondering to hav this car when im went to Karnival Youth Assembly in Putrajaya last month. I came to Chevrolet booth and you know what, the salesman said that the Chevrolet Cruze 1.8 Special Edition will be sold on standard car Price.. RM98k.. The actual SE car prices are RM 119k. Means you'll get RM 19k in less.. WTH!!! So i came to "The Accountant" when im goin back home. OMG. Still cannot afford yet for this car. maybe must wait for a year or more.. But theres a lot of cars and model with new and stylish design will be launched soon.. so... Just wait and see which car gonna be my choice.. :)
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Symphony.
Hai...
So dah lame x update blog ni. 6 bulan ke 7 bulan ke.. mmg busy sgt. since keje kat KL..
Hihihih ok la ni nk cerita sedikit tentang life and kerja.
3rd Jan 2011 reported to my work @ Bandar Bukit Puchong.
Position : Project Engineer
Scope of work : Project management, dealing and meeting with customers and vendors, reports of assessment and documentation. Name je engineer tapi almost working hours stay je kat office. On9, Layan Movie, Music plus my desk was at a very2 private and confidential area so i can see everyone including my boss movement.
Salary : 4 angka je. Tah bile nk mencapai 5, 6 angka..
So far kerja okay la.. x brape tension, or busy...
Expenses?? ofcourse big one. Toll, Petrol, maintenance, Meals.. semua mahal la.. Kat KL ni ape yg x kena bayar. Masuk toilet pon kne bayar pe. hahaha but pandai2 la berjimat. Teringin nak pakai kererta besar, ade rumah sendiri but belum mampu lagi.. Akan datang insyaallah.
Abut life kat Kl i so far ade la rakan2 dan adik2 yg sentiasa entertain.. Every weeks f course p jalan2. Btw, i bukan jenis yang kaki shopping. Last p shopping rasene Setahun yg lepas.. Oppss office ni da block any upload so xbleh nk upload gambar.. next time la k..
Gotta back to work bebeh!
So dah lame x update blog ni. 6 bulan ke 7 bulan ke.. mmg busy sgt. since keje kat KL..
Hihihih ok la ni nk cerita sedikit tentang life and kerja.
3rd Jan 2011 reported to my work @ Bandar Bukit Puchong.
Position : Project Engineer
Scope of work : Project management, dealing and meeting with customers and vendors, reports of assessment and documentation. Name je engineer tapi almost working hours stay je kat office. On9, Layan Movie, Music plus my desk was at a very2 private and confidential area so i can see everyone including my boss movement.
Salary : 4 angka je. Tah bile nk mencapai 5, 6 angka..
So far kerja okay la.. x brape tension, or busy...
Expenses?? ofcourse big one. Toll, Petrol, maintenance, Meals.. semua mahal la.. Kat KL ni ape yg x kena bayar. Masuk toilet pon kne bayar pe. hahaha but pandai2 la berjimat. Teringin nak pakai kererta besar, ade rumah sendiri but belum mampu lagi.. Akan datang insyaallah.
Abut life kat Kl i so far ade la rakan2 dan adik2 yg sentiasa entertain.. Every weeks f course p jalan2. Btw, i bukan jenis yang kaki shopping. Last p shopping rasene Setahun yg lepas.. Oppss office ni da block any upload so xbleh nk upload gambar.. next time la k..
Gotta back to work bebeh!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Kalaulah itu rumah aku...
Sapela agaknye yang boleh beli rumah 2, 3 ehh xcukup. nah amek rumah 10 juta.. pastu belakang umah ade garage.. multi storey plak tu.. cakap je nak kereta brand ape.. dari sekecik2 viva sampailah semahal2 lamborghini. berbaris pulak honda civic type-R, Nissan skyline GTR R35, Murcielago, Hummer H3, semua adelah.. adeh. pastu kat halaman umah ade swimming pool, olympic size. yg mane airnye sangat bersih untuk diminum dan ditukat setiap hari.. Dan juga ade jugak mini golf kat belakang umah..
Rumah pulak sampai lima tingkat.. ground floor cume untuk lepak2 petang.. amik angin, minum tea dan juga dapur termasuk bilik air yang lagi indah dari premier toilet kat The Gardens. Then second flor ade living hall, untuk tetamu datang dan juga dining hall yg ade elevator untuk angkut makanan dari dapur.. mcm kat Old Town.. Then 3rdflor plak ade master bedroom dan 2nd bedroom dan berapa banyak lagi bedroom untuk satu family tu tido.. 4th floor plak untuk entertainment dimana ade Set video game, then ade jamming studio.. pergh.. dan rooftop ade kerusi dan meja bersama lay-chair untuk menikmati udara petang sambil membaca buku/ novel/ encari idea untuk mengembangkan lagi bisnes..
Didalam living hall pula ade set sofa yg diimport dan direka khas dari italy dimana sekali duduk saja bagaikan disorongkan bantal untuk tidur kerana keempukan yang tiada tandingan. Perabot pula refurnished dari kayu balak yang cume ade dalam hutan timber di america. Pergh. Dalam bilik tidur pula, tilam yang direka khas oleh Mehdi Mojtabavi.. untuk keseronokan semasa tidur dan semasa bermain sebelum tidur...
Rumah pulak sampai lima tingkat.. ground floor cume untuk lepak2 petang.. amik angin, minum tea dan juga dapur termasuk bilik air yang lagi indah dari premier toilet kat The Gardens. Then second flor ade living hall, untuk tetamu datang dan juga dining hall yg ade elevator untuk angkut makanan dari dapur.. mcm kat Old Town.. Then 3rdflor plak ade master bedroom dan 2nd bedroom dan berapa banyak lagi bedroom untuk satu family tu tido.. 4th floor plak untuk entertainment dimana ade Set video game, then ade jamming studio.. pergh.. dan rooftop ade kerusi dan meja bersama lay-chair untuk menikmati udara petang sambil membaca buku/ novel/ encari idea untuk mengembangkan lagi bisnes..
Didalam living hall pula ade set sofa yg diimport dan direka khas dari italy dimana sekali duduk saja bagaikan disorongkan bantal untuk tidur kerana keempukan yang tiada tandingan. Perabot pula refurnished dari kayu balak yang cume ade dalam hutan timber di america. Pergh. Dalam bilik tidur pula, tilam yang direka khas oleh Mehdi Mojtabavi.. untuk keseronokan semasa tidur dan semasa bermain sebelum tidur...
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Honda Civic Hybrid
The 2011 Honda Civic Hybrid PRICE DROP!!!!

After the Malaysian 2011 Budget being imposed to public, one of the content in the budget is to cut off the import duty for hybrid cars.. In Malaysian there are two type of hybrid car that is Honda Civic Hybrid and the most globally known Toyota Prius.
CIVIC HYBRID CHEAPER BY RM21,000
PETALING JAYA: Honda Malaysia Sdn Bhd has reduced the price of its Civic Hybrid by RM21,000 following the Government’s decision to extend the tax incentives for hybrid vehicles until Dec 31, 2011.
With the revised pricing, customers can now purchase the Civic Hybrid with a on-the-road price of RM108,980 in Peninsular Malaysia and RM109,980 in East Malaysia.
“As the pioneer in introducing the hybrid technology to the Malaysian market, we are pleased with the government’s decision to allow full exemption of import duty and excise duty as announced in the recent Budget 2011.
“The move will make hybrid vehicles more accessible for environmentally conscious Malaysians. These exemptions are certainly timely as Honda is looking into expanding its hybrid vehicle line-up in Malaysia,” said Honda Malaysia president and chief operating officer Rohime Shafie.
Honda Malaysia believes that the tax incentives offered by the Government will encourage more Malaysians to opt for environmentally responsible technology that is also fuel-efficient.
Building on its pioneer role in the introduction of the Hybrid technology to Malaysians, Honda will continue to educate and build awareness on advanced green technologies among Malaysians.
“Honda is committed to continue developing technologies which are gentle on the environment yet fun to drive,” Rohime said.
The automotive press likes the 2011 Honda Civic Hybrid for its futuristic exterior, quality interior and solid list of optional and standard features -- like XM satellite radio, heated leather seats, a tilt and telescopic steering wheel and navigation system -- that that will meet most buyers’ needs.
In addition to having a nice interior and exterior, the Honda Civic Hybrid ranks at the top of its class for its fuel economy rating, which is an impressive 40/43 mpg city/highway. Otherwise, the Civic Hybrid doesn’t have much else going for it in the performance department. Reviewers say it’s slow -- though they concede its handling is pretty good for a hybrid.
That said, other hybrids like the Toyota Prius, will appeal to shoppers looking for better performance, higher fuel economy ratings and a lower price. Still, the Civic Hybrid will satisfy shoppers who value the Honda Civic for its reliability and contemporary look, but really want a hybrid.

After the Malaysian 2011 Budget being imposed to public, one of the content in the budget is to cut off the import duty for hybrid cars.. In Malaysian there are two type of hybrid car that is Honda Civic Hybrid and the most globally known Toyota Prius.
CIVIC HYBRID CHEAPER BY RM21,000
PETALING JAYA: Honda Malaysia Sdn Bhd has reduced the price of its Civic Hybrid by RM21,000 following the Government’s decision to extend the tax incentives for hybrid vehicles until Dec 31, 2011.
With the revised pricing, customers can now purchase the Civic Hybrid with a on-the-road price of RM108,980 in Peninsular Malaysia and RM109,980 in East Malaysia.
“As the pioneer in introducing the hybrid technology to the Malaysian market, we are pleased with the government’s decision to allow full exemption of import duty and excise duty as announced in the recent Budget 2011.
“The move will make hybrid vehicles more accessible for environmentally conscious Malaysians. These exemptions are certainly timely as Honda is looking into expanding its hybrid vehicle line-up in Malaysia,” said Honda Malaysia president and chief operating officer Rohime Shafie.
Honda Malaysia believes that the tax incentives offered by the Government will encourage more Malaysians to opt for environmentally responsible technology that is also fuel-efficient.
Building on its pioneer role in the introduction of the Hybrid technology to Malaysians, Honda will continue to educate and build awareness on advanced green technologies among Malaysians.
“Honda is committed to continue developing technologies which are gentle on the environment yet fun to drive,” Rohime said.
The automotive press likes the 2011 Honda Civic Hybrid for its futuristic exterior, quality interior and solid list of optional and standard features -- like XM satellite radio, heated leather seats, a tilt and telescopic steering wheel and navigation system -- that that will meet most buyers’ needs.
In addition to having a nice interior and exterior, the Honda Civic Hybrid ranks at the top of its class for its fuel economy rating, which is an impressive 40/43 mpg city/highway. Otherwise, the Civic Hybrid doesn’t have much else going for it in the performance department. Reviewers say it’s slow -- though they concede its handling is pretty good for a hybrid.
That said, other hybrids like the Toyota Prius, will appeal to shoppers looking for better performance, higher fuel economy ratings and a lower price. Still, the Civic Hybrid will satisfy shoppers who value the Honda Civic for its reliability and contemporary look, but really want a hybrid.
New D3100 vs D5000.. soon ya cum..
The new D3100 really shakes up Nikon's lineup of lower priced DSLRs. In my previous comparison between the D90, D5000 and D3000 I had a hard time recommending the D3000 and the extra money was well spent on the D5000. The D3100 changes this recommendation.
Major revisions to the D3100:
* New 14MP CMOS sensor - big improvement over the D3000's ancient CCD sensor
* 1080p24 video - nonexistent on the D3000 and better than the D5000 and D90
* Autofocus while recording a movie - a first on any Nikon DSLR, before you had to lock focus before recording and tweak it manually
* Live view mode - brought over with the video features
* Automatic chromatic aberration correction - This is big, fixes fringing in your pictures before they are saved, previously only on the D90 and D5000
* Customizable function button
The D5000 is essentially obsolete now. The D3100 and D5000 have comparable sensors now and the inclusion of better video capability makes the decision between the D3100 and D5000 simple; until the D5000 is updated just get the D3100.
A lot of features from the D90 have been pushed down to the lower price points and the one thing that really sets the two consumer segments apart is the inclusion of an AF motor on D90. If you are going to use lenses without built in AF motors then the D90 (or it's soon to be announced replacement) is still your only choice. If I was just starting out though, I wouldn't hesitate to get the D3100 which beats the D5000 in bang for your buck.
source : http://geekyweekly.com
Major revisions to the D3100:
* New 14MP CMOS sensor - big improvement over the D3000's ancient CCD sensor
* 1080p24 video - nonexistent on the D3000 and better than the D5000 and D90
* Autofocus while recording a movie - a first on any Nikon DSLR, before you had to lock focus before recording and tweak it manually
* Live view mode - brought over with the video features
* Automatic chromatic aberration correction - This is big, fixes fringing in your pictures before they are saved, previously only on the D90 and D5000
* Customizable function button
The D5000 is essentially obsolete now. The D3100 and D5000 have comparable sensors now and the inclusion of better video capability makes the decision between the D3100 and D5000 simple; until the D5000 is updated just get the D3100.
A lot of features from the D90 have been pushed down to the lower price points and the one thing that really sets the two consumer segments apart is the inclusion of an AF motor on D90. If you are going to use lenses without built in AF motors then the D90 (or it's soon to be announced replacement) is still your only choice. If I was just starting out though, I wouldn't hesitate to get the D3100 which beats the D5000 in bang for your buck.
source : http://geekyweekly.com
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Kembali Memblog kan diri..;)
Lamenye dh x hapdet blog ni.. urm ting tang ting tang 6 bulan da.. hehehe
tatau meh knape lame sangat tinggal.. nanti sy post blek what happen every month from april to october okeh..;)
tatau meh knape lame sangat tinggal.. nanti sy post blek what happen every month from april to october okeh..;)
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Bila ketensionan melanda
Adoiii... aku pnat!!!
aku tension!!!
arghhhh aku xtau nk ckp ape lagi
mmg aku sekarang ni dalam keadaan seperti in..
aku x mengerti aku xtau apa yg aku nk buat. aku rase mcm sesat di lautan yg tiada penghujung
tinggal lebih kurang sebulan je lagi aku nk grad. kenapa lah jadi mcm ni. adui baru ku rasa betapa beratnya menjadi seorang pelajar tahun akhir..
bagaimana dengan final year project yg semakin terbengkalai bak pembangunan yang dicemari rasuah dan akhirnya menjadi projek gajah putih. tapi projekku ini tiadalah unsur2 rasuah.
mungkin ini satu ujian.. tapi aku pon masih x mengerti apakah penyebab ini semua.
aku semakin tension dai hari ke hari..
aku xtau mcmne nak buat untuk hilangkan semua ini.
aku cuba untuk berhibur tapi semua x masuk. semua mcm x bleh pakai..
aku rasa tenang bila tinggal di rumah ku syurga ku. bersama mak ayah dan adik2.. dan aku rasa seperti menyesal bila keputusanku yg lalu menyebabkan aku berjaya melanjutkan pelajaranku sehingga ke universiti..
kalaulah dari dulu aku bekerja mgkin aku sekarang ini memiliki kehidupan yg agak bebas sedikit. atau mungkin juga aku dh berkawin dan beranak pinak.
arhhh itu semua benda dah lepas.. masalah memang sentiasa datang. cuma kita harus mencari jalan penyelesaian. ia mmg xkan berhenti. settle yg satu, yg lain pulak datang.
bila agaknya nak habis ni. adoiyai...
ni aku mase dalam perjalanan tadi aku terbayang kalaulah di pertengahan jalan aku terlanggar sebuah lori dan.. aduh xdpt nk cerita . sadis sungguh.. tapi aku tau
aku manusia biasa. banyak membuat dosa. dan aku belum berhasrat untuk mintak MATI. yea MATI. aku rase kalaulah aku jadi seekor burung, alangkah indahnya dapat terbang bebas, tak perlu nk fikir belajar kerja... tapi akhirnya mati ditangan penembak atau lastik atau paling x pun dijerat atau dimakan pemangsa lain. aku juga berharap aku adalah lautan yg sentiasa bergelora menjadi laluan kapal2 dan mansia bermandi manda dan juga mencari rezeki. tapi aku xmahu dipersalahkan sekiranya terjadi bencana yg memusnahkan alam dan makhluk di daratan mahupun di lautan.
aku lapat saat ini tapidi hatiku masih kenyang dengan penat, tekanan yg ku hadapi. demmm!!!! arghhhhhh yea full stop!
then aku xtau mcmne dgn hari2 esok.
apakah aku akan terus begini.
kenapalah aku diuji seteruk ini.. betul kata mak, segala ujian sakit dan dugaan itu adalah untuk menguji sejauh mana seoang makhluk itu mengingati tuhannya. YA ALLAH! tolonglah hambamu ini. aku tahu aku banyak dosa yg aku lakukan. ku harapsegala apa yg datang padaku ini ada hikmah disebaliknya
yea walaupun aku selalu meragui apakah hikmah yg datang disebalik kecelakaan tapi ku pasti kau yg maha penyayang terhadap makhlukmu YA ALLAH!
Sedih rasanya hati melihat diriku begini..
tapi sampai bila........x(
aku tension!!!
arghhhh aku xtau nk ckp ape lagi
mmg aku sekarang ni dalam keadaan seperti in..
aku x mengerti aku xtau apa yg aku nk buat. aku rase mcm sesat di lautan yg tiada penghujung
tinggal lebih kurang sebulan je lagi aku nk grad. kenapa lah jadi mcm ni. adui baru ku rasa betapa beratnya menjadi seorang pelajar tahun akhir..
bagaimana dengan final year project yg semakin terbengkalai bak pembangunan yang dicemari rasuah dan akhirnya menjadi projek gajah putih. tapi projekku ini tiadalah unsur2 rasuah.
mungkin ini satu ujian.. tapi aku pon masih x mengerti apakah penyebab ini semua.
aku semakin tension dai hari ke hari..
aku xtau mcmne nak buat untuk hilangkan semua ini.
aku cuba untuk berhibur tapi semua x masuk. semua mcm x bleh pakai..
aku rasa tenang bila tinggal di rumah ku syurga ku. bersama mak ayah dan adik2.. dan aku rasa seperti menyesal bila keputusanku yg lalu menyebabkan aku berjaya melanjutkan pelajaranku sehingga ke universiti..
kalaulah dari dulu aku bekerja mgkin aku sekarang ini memiliki kehidupan yg agak bebas sedikit. atau mungkin juga aku dh berkawin dan beranak pinak.
arhhh itu semua benda dah lepas.. masalah memang sentiasa datang. cuma kita harus mencari jalan penyelesaian. ia mmg xkan berhenti. settle yg satu, yg lain pulak datang.
bila agaknya nak habis ni. adoiyai...
ni aku mase dalam perjalanan tadi aku terbayang kalaulah di pertengahan jalan aku terlanggar sebuah lori dan.. aduh xdpt nk cerita . sadis sungguh.. tapi aku tau
aku manusia biasa. banyak membuat dosa. dan aku belum berhasrat untuk mintak MATI. yea MATI. aku rase kalaulah aku jadi seekor burung, alangkah indahnya dapat terbang bebas, tak perlu nk fikir belajar kerja... tapi akhirnya mati ditangan penembak atau lastik atau paling x pun dijerat atau dimakan pemangsa lain. aku juga berharap aku adalah lautan yg sentiasa bergelora menjadi laluan kapal2 dan mansia bermandi manda dan juga mencari rezeki. tapi aku xmahu dipersalahkan sekiranya terjadi bencana yg memusnahkan alam dan makhluk di daratan mahupun di lautan.
aku lapat saat ini tapidi hatiku masih kenyang dengan penat, tekanan yg ku hadapi. demmm!!!! arghhhhhh yea full stop!
then aku xtau mcmne dgn hari2 esok.
apakah aku akan terus begini.
kenapalah aku diuji seteruk ini.. betul kata mak, segala ujian sakit dan dugaan itu adalah untuk menguji sejauh mana seoang makhluk itu mengingati tuhannya. YA ALLAH! tolonglah hambamu ini. aku tahu aku banyak dosa yg aku lakukan. ku harapsegala apa yg datang padaku ini ada hikmah disebaliknya
yea walaupun aku selalu meragui apakah hikmah yg datang disebalik kecelakaan tapi ku pasti kau yg maha penyayang terhadap makhlukmu YA ALLAH!
Sedih rasanya hati melihat diriku begini..
tapi sampai bila........x(
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